Now, I’m an enemy in the eyes of Russians and in those of Estonians. I hoped to train kids in Estonia. I was offered a position in Narva. I’m not looking for fame or anything, I just want to disappear.
First, I want to ask Estonians to forgive me for what I did. I don’t deny the fact I could have said no, but it would have been difficult. I feel that the decision to send me to jail was made higher up. I have nothing against Estonians. Even here, in prison, Estonian guards talk to me and help me, while Russians turn their backs.
How are the conditions in prison?
I do not want to talk abut that, seeing as I’m in prison right now. It is a bad place. Every month, I’m paid a visit by KAPO operatives who serve me a version of events, according to which I’m here because I would not have enough money otherwise…
But a prison doesn’t have to be a resort. A person has no rights here. A kid hanged himself recently. I asked the guards what happened, and they started asking me how I found out… I don’t want to talk about prison.